This mornings devotional in Jesus Calling by Sarah Young said..."Strive to trust in Me in more and more areas of your life. Anything that tends to make you anxious is a growth opportunity. Instead of running away from these challenges, embrace them, eager to gain all the blessings I have hidden in the difficulties. If you believe that I am sovereign over every aspect of your life, it is possible to trust Me in all situations. Don't waste energy regretting the way things are or thinking about what might have been. Start at the present moments--accepting things exactly as they are--and search for My way in the midst of those circumstances. Trust is like a staff you can lean on, as you journey uphill with Me. If you are trusting in Me consistently, the staff will bear as much of your weight as needed. Lean on, trust, and be confident in Me with all your heart and mind."
THIS message spoke directly to my heart in SO many ways! I have gone so long without putting 100% trust in the Lord. Not letting go of the obvious due to fears of the unknown. I wasted so much energy regretting so many mistakes and what I could have done differently, but it was too late. Thinking about all my many mistakes and my past wasn't doing me any good! So I'm starting at the PRESENT moment and accepting me for ME, forgiving myself and leaning on Him for "rest", trust and understanding...and I will be confident in my faith and release the bondage that alcohol has had on me for all these years. Letting go and letting God rule over my life in ALL the ways He should. Being quiet so I hear the Holy Spirit guide me through each day. I've always had a very loud Holy Spirit inside of me (something I'm extremely thankful for), but I chose not to listen to Him. I made a commitment for 2021. When He speaks, I will listen and I will act. Following Him is truly the only way I want to live...I want a life filled with the blessings He has in store for me!
I'm SO glad that I can make things right in my life. I am FORGIVEN and can move onto a better life! I FINALLY realize what's MOST important in this life. I AM important, my faith, my family, my friends that genuinely care about me ARE the most important things in my life. I will cherish and NOT take them for granted any longer. I've lived more than half of my life in a rat race in my head, but no more. I'm determined to fill however many years I have left with love, peace, contentment and joy. Focusing on the things that REALLY matter in life!