"Come to Me and Rest. I am all around you, to bless and restore. Breath Me in with each breath. The way just ahead of you is very steep. Slow down and cling tightly to My hand. I am teaching you a difficult lesson, learned only by hardship. Lift up empty hands of faith to receive My precious Presence. Light, Life, Joy and Peace flow freely through this gift. When your focus turns away from Me, you grasp for other things. You drop the glowing gift of My Presence as you reach for lifeless ashes. Return to Me; regain My Presence." ~ Jesus Calling by Sarah Young.
This message really spoke to me this morning. I lost my way for so long and learned many HARD lessons. I wasn't clinging to Him, but I was clinging to hope in myself which obviously didn't work. I did pray but I wasn't really trying to get myself out of the deep dark hole of despair…I was just stuck in a rut day in and day out. When I FINALLY decided to surrender, I felt His gift come over Me once again. The gift of His presence, light, new life, joy and peace surrounded me like never before. All I had to do is surrender to Him and release ALL my burdens to be set free. It's a daily task, but one I am definitely up for now after realizing the path I was on was a disastrous one. His way is the right way, and the only way to true freedom.
My way was selfish and dangerous, and I'm VERY grateful to be alive. I honestly can't believe I never had a DUI or arrested for public intoxication. The ridiculous amounts of time I drove drunk is unnerving...how irresponsible of me!!! The many nights when I was younger that I was so drunk that I didn't remember where I was when I woke up but God ALWAYS kept me safe (thank you, Lord). My angels were truly watching over me ALL these many years. The memories race my mind of my "crazy days" and I'm disgusted by choices I made under the influence of alcohol. BUT the good news is, I AM forgiven, and I am moving on to a MUCH better life ahead of me. Walking in His light...I have peace and joy. THAT is where I am and THAT is where I'll stay...now and forever! Day by day, minute by minute, I will continue to rest and live in and for Him.