Updated: Feb 18, 2021
I'm back!!! I took a little break from posting for a family trip up to Maryland to see some friends. It had been a long 4 months since we were last there, so it was overdue...especially for our kids! Covid-19 has really put a damper on things...well, LOTS of things! Our plans were to visit every 4-6 weeks, but darn Covid-19 didn't allow that to happen, so needless to say, we were SO excited to see our friends!!!
This was my first real "test" since I stopped drinking alcohol. The friends we visited are our dearest friends in Maryland...they're like family to us! I knew I had their 110% support or I never would have taken the chance so early in my sobriety. Was I nervous and anxious about this trip? Yes, I was, but I felt strong. I knew that I would NEVER be pressured, if anything, I knew I was in a "safe place" with them.
My friends didn't even have a drink, or if they did, they didn't announce it or flaunt it in front of me. I asked for everyone to carry on as usual...drinks and all, and I wanted them to do what was comfortable for them. I knew what I had to do and nothing was going to stop me. I am SO thankful for these friends of ours. They really "get" me and respect me. They all knew I had a problem with alcohol since they had seen it ALL over the years as well, and I'm so thankful for their unfailing support! They didn't have to, but they supported me this weekend more than I could have ever imagined, and for THAT, I am extremely grateful!
This devotional from this weekend really resonated with me..."Give yourself fully to the adventure of today. Walk boldly along the path of Life, relying on your ever-present Companion. You have every reason to be confident, because My Presence accompanies you all the days of your life--and onward into eternity. Do not give in to fear or worry, those robbers of abundant living. Trust Me enough to face problems as they come, rather than trying to anticipate them. Fix your eyes on Me, the Author and Perfecter of your faith, and many difficulties on the road ahead will vanish before you reach them. Whenever you start to feel afraid, remember that I am holding you by your right hand. Nothing can separate you from My Presence." ~ Jesus Calling by Sarah Young
This is exactly what He allowed for me this weekend through lots of prayer! He gave me strength and confidence! I did NOT fear or worry. I trusted in Him and knew if I fixed my eyes on Him, He would see me through each day. Whenever I started feeling a little afraid, I'd pause and pray for strength. Did I miss drinking with my friends? Yes, I did, but the beauty of everything else was SO much more meaningful than a drunken night of shenanigans and waking up feeling like death!
We're creating new memories together now. Memories that we'll actually remember with NO regrets! Fun memories for our kids that don't involve their parents drinking alcohol every time we're together. Life is too short for regrets. Life is too precious not to spend time with the ones you love. Our kids are the most precious gift and I'm so thankful to be living a life that is setting a good example for them now. No more drunk mom falling down and embarrassing my family. No more passing out on the couch. No more mornings wondering what I did the night before. No more mornings hungover with SO many regrets...NO MORE! What a GREAT feeling...to FINALLY be FREE from the bondage alcohol had on my life for ALL these years!